It's that time of the day again when the only souls seen are those of the people laying an underground pipe and the only only sounds heard are those of the blaring horns of the massive trucks. When all the lights in the apartments are out and the moon along with a million stars illuminates the sky. Everybody is fast asleep and i lie awake amazed at how the quiet of the night leaves me awestruck every single time. I walk up to the window and see that the lights in a neighboring flat are still on. For some reason i don't quite know, it makes me feel better.
I find comfort in knowing that I'm not the only one wide awake and then I wonder if that person just forgot to turn off the lights before going to bed. Suddenly the comfort fades and all I am left with is the loneliness of the night.
As I go back to bed I slowly realize something that gives my heart a shiver. We human beings are always dependent on someone other than ourselves. And for SOME twisted sick reason we tend to cling on to them in spite of everything they do and say.
It's terrifying to know that the only way to feel true happiness and to actually live is by being vulnerable. By trusting someone and giving them your heart in spite of being fully aware that it might be broken. Crushed even. We tend to find comfort in knowing that they'd be around when we want someone to talk to. To make us smile when the skies are grey. To make sure that we're okay. And promise to stick with you through the thick and the thin. We tend to believe that they'd always be around. What we fail to realize though is that, that someday they might be gone. Gone so far that even if they tried to, they wouldn't be able to come back. It's scary to know that the special people in our lives will also go away someday and scarier to know that one day it might all be over.
The scariest part though is to know that there exists a possibility that THAT someday could be today or tomorrow.
I find comfort in knowing that I'm not the only one wide awake and then I wonder if that person just forgot to turn off the lights before going to bed. Suddenly the comfort fades and all I am left with is the loneliness of the night.
As I go back to bed I slowly realize something that gives my heart a shiver. We human beings are always dependent on someone other than ourselves. And for SOME twisted sick reason we tend to cling on to them in spite of everything they do and say.
It's terrifying to know that the only way to feel true happiness and to actually live is by being vulnerable. By trusting someone and giving them your heart in spite of being fully aware that it might be broken. Crushed even. We tend to find comfort in knowing that they'd be around when we want someone to talk to. To make us smile when the skies are grey. To make sure that we're okay. And promise to stick with you through the thick and the thin. We tend to believe that they'd always be around. What we fail to realize though is that, that someday they might be gone. Gone so far that even if they tried to, they wouldn't be able to come back. It's scary to know that the special people in our lives will also go away someday and scarier to know that one day it might all be over.
The scariest part though is to know that there exists a possibility that THAT someday could be today or tomorrow.
this is so you Uttanshi :)
ReplyDeleteBrilliant writing :D
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DeleteThanks a lot , you! :)